Poems 2006-2007

The Mist of Day

Things I cannot alter or forget

prove me Love's apostate

whom I most strove to serve.


At seventy-one

the women who were everywhere

are gone.


I have no ruins or rented tenement

do not await a bird song

or a multifoliate rose.


My high cave faces west

toward Mexico and Monterey.


I read by day and watch tv at night.

First Date

 on our first date, I brought you home
to a carefully prepared stage set:
fireplace, music, wine, cushions...
asking: "Would you like the full seduction here
or should we go straight to the bedroom?"

"What's in the bedroom?"

After that, love-making every night
all night intermittently
fellatio, fucking in cars, elevators, woods
motel rooms...anywhere...

until the fault lines fractured
blew us apart, even as
bonds of atoms smashed, release
the energy of suns

but time and again
we came together, ever closer
always repeating the explosive end
each time more violent

and each time
resistance to your love...
my stubborn, bachelor will
crumbled a little more.

At last you married, moving out of state
a final severance
wounds sealed, annealed


one more return
would find me shattered, all defenses down
ripe for idolatry, kneeling before a throne
where you would sit and wear a queenly crown

Rambling

 the fan blows steadily

sunset's slant light
diagonally bisects the far wall
the artifacts of my living room
don't move

below my balcony
time scrolls across the urban landscape
like the clear hump of a wave

and here and there rips off a leaf
launches a fruit
or snaps a twig with ice 

Alone

 each night
the door opened

She'd enter
loaded with parcels
gifts, boxes, bags
and rush to kiss me.

The cups, plates and furniture
listened to the story of her day
in rapt attention
as I did not.

Now the door is still
the phone silent

the tv babbles
unheard.

Time soaks into the walls
dulling the paint.

Sitting easy in my satisfaction
I idly dream the door will open

that someone will
come home. 

The Light

 this is a very thin reality
a screen reflecting light


where are the real actors
the real world
built with billions of numbers


for those who eat shadows
drink mirrored water?


we don't embue
we don't engender 


only the light that reaches us
teaches us to move and speak


the missing energy
the dark matter


all in the projector
all in the light 


Parting

 be there no more meeting of our ways
let each awake to different worlds and days


let memory of me, by time distilled
dissolve in darkness leaving just a glow
like embers


like the spectre of a blaze 

Thinking

 what was I thinking just now?
what was I thinking just before that?
what will I be thinking after this? 

The Chess Players

 I.

do they still play
on the stone tables?


in summer
we played till dawn


afternoon, evening, night
circled oblivious warriors


do the fishing boats still leave
from Sheepshead Bay?


does the fog still drown Pacific Grove?


who lives in that five-story walkup
cooking ramen?



who has found love
on the Lower East Side?


The trains all rush
to their terminals


the airports silenced by snow


in 1945 my brother was two years old
I was ten


we were a family of four
in a one-bedroom Brooklyn apartment



my bicycle took me throughout Brooklyn
as far as Sheepshead Bay


II.

Today's Lesson: answer 25 questions.
tomorrow: the same
Friday: composition


November: Midterms
January: Finals


Israel in Palestine
Kennedy in Dallas
Johnson in Vietnam


moving slowly, inexorably
toward Bush, 9/11, Iraq


America down the drain
helpless to prevent
helpless


III


In my mad ardor, my lust, my needs
I would have done far more damage
had not the unknown gods jerked me short.


I'll be in a bookstore
or by a river


in a Florida supermarket
or a movie house in Vera Cruz


on 8th Street
or in Washington Square Park


in a Bickford coffee shop
(waiting for the rain to stop)


or in a fifth-floor walkup
in Brooklyn


trying to improve my chess


Mock Heroics

 Hwaet! We Gardena. We spear-Danes!
Kia! Chariot of white gold, great snowy steed!
Lochinvar rides to rip you from your clan, Robin
nocks an arrow for your freedom.


I, Beowulf, spoiling for a fight
arrived at Herot, Hrothgar's Hall.
A Long day's Journey to Heartbreak House

Bleak House
Amfortas' house of pain.


We feasted, drank deep, but by night

Grendel tore our comrade
devoured flesh and bone.


Arabian Nights. Asian nights. Latin nights.


Stations of the Cross, the living dead.


War's immaculate conception. Empire's
Virgin Birth.

What of it?


Dost thou think, because thou art virtuous...
O man in the mirror?

I'll get a drink in hell...

Let God sort 'em out
Let it begin with me.
 

Accounting

burnt time

scorched time


crumbling scrolls

curled pages

carbon folios


days


days pass


I note down every hour

reading, cooking, walking the park


woodbine, wood song


sundials, horologes

circles of dream


durance engines

gnomons 


logging

earthly servitude


Nostalgia

day breeze tastes of meadow

night wind scents of sea

blows warm

blows steadily


the forgetful brain reminded

of things fallen from sky

or hauled from the depths


angel-winged rays

fragments of stars